monadologie day 36

Feeling rather stunned after today. Bonnie and I worked out a couple of reiterative sequences that unfold from from the beginning and end of the group of phrases and respectively refer back towards earlier phrases and forward towards later phrases. They also occur with greater frequency at the beginning and end so cause a pile-up of repetitions that causes a rather grueling mental exertion just to remember what comes next, not even what we do with what comes next. And by strange chance, they cross over in the middle, so we can do either the ascending or descending sequences.

Much confusion and anxiety.

Which is to say, we tried to run it all today. 41 phrases unfold to nearly double that and in an instant we have almost half an hour of something that more-or-less is what it will be in another week. I realised that these unfolded phrases could serve as a basis for another set of series that operate on them which we never got to, and then thought about equations, and how through a process of eliminating, swapping around, balancing, it’s possible to make it more simple, which gave me the ghost of a sense of something further away, where pockets of emptiness would appear just from these eliminations.

I suggested this to Bonnie and immediately declared it’s something I’ll work on on my own in the final weeks of the residency.

We still have about a week of useful play time left. Lina returns tomorrow and I hope is not too horrified by what we have done. It’s all lurching into production time now, thinking about more than just making dance, and having to divide my attention elsewhere.

It’s become an extremely intense piece, something I’d imagined, after all my visual aesthetic for this was inspired by black metal and doom … ok … photographs of Sunn0))) playing live. I think also my turbulent personal life has seeped into it too. I wonder if when astrophysicists are having a bad time, they write angry and emotional equations?

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monadologie day 30 – 33, 34 & 35

So, has been an eventful week of much sleeplessness and then some sleep. And then some more sleeplessness.

And now another week.

Personal hysteria aside, (and dissociation, haha), last week was the hardest so far in the process. This wasn’t because Lina is away, though the dynamic in the studio of two verbose coffee drinkers trying to remove ourselves from catatonia was … mmm … amusing. Things nonetheless have been coming together.

This week, after lying in bed all weekend reading Matter, (Oh, yes, is good and gnashing of teeth and wailing that I’ll finish it in the next couple of days, provided the sleeping pills don’t banish me first), was physically gruesome. We finished learning all the phrases, 41 of them, some fifteen minutes of movement that leaves us in a rather exhausted trance. Physically it’s not very aerobic in intensity, but it’s certainly something to endure.

Last week I started thinking about series, and out of nowhere said, “Fibonacci sequence, that is, 1,1,2,3,5,8,13,21,34…”. On the weekend, after talking with Chris who said, “ft =a0ft-2 + a1ft-1 + a2ft+1 + a3ft+2“. I thought about that for the weekend and on Sunday, decided, “n = n + n + n-1 + n-2“, more or less the same thing, really. Except mine makes sense only to me.

I was interested in a sequential recurrence of phrases that had some kind of pre-determined die-off, that is to say, rather than a single step iteration 1st, 2nd, 3rd … nth, each n that was a significant number in a sequence would refer back to a certain number of earlier steps with each successive n losing the last of the previous steps referred to. Or in our case, playing with the Fibonacci numbers, (which incidentally, while occurring in the natural world in abundance don’t seem to figure in astrophysics. Bummer.) to cause recurrent cycles of the 41 phrases.

Or to make sense of it, with my formula, each phrase that corresponds to a Fibonacci number repeats itself and then the phrases corresponding to the previous two Fibonacci numbers. Confused? Only because it’s me explaining it.

Additionally (haha, yes, additionally), we’ve tied in the less-than-1-second unfoldings, the re-improvisings to the reiterations of phrases and also somehow including a bunch of text on one of them. We tried it today and got hopelessly lost and anxious and who knows what would come next and seems like we’re caught in an endless loop of one phrase, and then we got it kind of working. The original 14 phrases, some 3 or 4 minutes with all this unfolding becomes 11 minutes. It’s quite creepy to do and has a … it’s hard to tell if we’re far too close to what we’re doing to see what it really is, but seems to be rather intense to watch.

No, I’m not finished. We did realise yesterday that all this together pretty much constitutes the piece some of you will see in two weeks, but there’s a couple more steps yet.

The original idea, I’m still working with Chris on was a correlation between the various series of Hydrogen absorption sequences and the phrases. Variously this would cause certain of the later phrases under certain conditions to collapse back to one of the first five or six phrases. This could work quite well with the Fibonacci sequence which decreases in frequency as the number becomes larger, as the Hydrogen series tend to occur further up the spectrum. Anyway, fun for me, pain for others.

11 minutes, 30 seconds of video (below) above … un0)))joy…