god made you a boy

After the tranny-medical adventures I had yesterday, I probably shouldn’t even be going anywhere near reading an article like this because it is certain to make me want to kill kill kill for inner peace and mental health. But whatever, lance the boil etc. Anyway read this rather long article from Speigel Online, it will make you a better person.

“We always saw Kim as a girl, but not as a problem,” says the father. “In fact, our life was surprisingly normal.”

Normal until Kim was twelve, and experienced the first signs of puberty. She was overcome by panic when her voice began to drop. She had no interest in becoming one of those brawny creatures with gigantic hands and deep voices who dressed like women but looked unfeminine. Only hormones could prevent Kim from turning into Tim again, and time was of the essence.

The family was at a loss when it came to seeking medical advice. “If your child has a heart defect you send him to a specialist,” says Kim’s mother, “but when your child is transsexual everyone seems to have an opinion.”

— Spiegel Online

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yeah, that’s what i think too

MySpace. What a desolate crevasse of meaninglessness, fake pseudo-friends, lowest-common-denominators in every realm of human imagination and obscenely poor coding. This whole Social Networking thing just holds no appeal to me, and even having Technorati Tags at the bottom of every post is stretching my tolerance.

I like being here. I purposely and intentionally did not have a LiveJournal or other web-based blog, I don’t hot-link images, nor suck down YouTube’s bandwidth, and if an issue is important enough for me to blog about, I’ll quote the article here in full. Why? Because it’s important to me that the only person who determines the content of my blog, and whether a post and its contents remain or are deleted is me.

Oh, and by the way…

The next person to ask me ‘Say, do you have a MySpace account?’ will receive an anthrax love letter from me.

Once and for all: Never ever will I join a News Corp. / Fox Interactive Media owned “socialising” site with corrupt policies and I honestly don’t understand how so many of you (yes, you!) obviously don’t seem to bother about this.

Also, I clearly don’t give a rotten rat’s ass about how great it is for “networking”. I don’t need networks to feel like a more important person.

So if you don’t mind, I’d quite like to stay here in my own little corner of the world wide web.

Wurzeltod is my space, and I don’t need any place else.

Thanks everyone for shutting up about it now.


¹ Starring:

• The Maquis guerrilla
• The Italian resistenza
• The fearless protestors of Prague Spring
Augusto César Sandino’s captured flag
• The Belarusian résistance
• and… uhmm… the Animal Liberation Front

— Suzanne G. – Giving Taste A Bad Name Since Kindergarten

transmediale 06 talking about china

In December last year, Martijn de Waal contacted me about as part of the Chinese Mediaculture project. It was a pretty interesting project that was circulating alot of the ideas of the Pearl River Delta that was the focus of the 第二届广州三年展 2nd Guangzhou Triennial. Over in Berlin at the moment, the 19th Transmediale Festival is making lots of cool art noise, and Martin and V2 were there talking about the Chinese blogsphere and Chinese media arts. we-make-money-not-art, which should be on everyone’s daily rss-art-whoring list has excellent coverage of both Transmediale and the The China Connection Part 1 and Part 2.

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transsexuals in china

There was a kinda interesting article in China Daily, about a transsexual named Xiao Ying, who is about to have the sex-change operation. Kinda interesting in that much of the English language media coming out of China presents a fairly benevolent world of being queer in the country, and seems reasonably matter-of-fact about it. The consistent slips of personal pronouns though, and inaccurate descriptions of terminology makes the parade a bit of a freak show, or more accurately makes the journalist and editors look like illiterate hillbillies.

Xiao will soon be one of around 300 people in China to become a transsexual (a person who has undergone a sex change), according to his doctor Chen Huanran, a top sex-change surgeon with the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences.

It is estimated that between 13,000 and 26,000 people in the country show transsexual tendencies.

“We have little difficulty technically,” Chen said.

“Transsexual woman can even go through a pre-marriage check without being discovered. But major obstacles lie in the lack of social understanding.”

Chen said a significant number of his patients who have successfully mutated into the opposite sex hide their gender history from friends and spouses because they are scared they would be discriminated against.

“About 20 per cent of my patients cannot live normal lives because they fail to gain understanding from people around them,” he said.

— China Daily

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a new beginning … same old whoring

… i know i’ve made some very poor decisions recently, but i can give you my complete assurance that my work will be back to normal. i’ve still got the greatest enthusiasm and confidence in the mission. and i want to help you…

Hello from my new blog which is actually my old blog with a new name supernaut.info, more of the same once I’ve finished uploading several thousand images and 700 or so old posts, which I think is going to take a while on dial-up. While you’re waiting don’t drink the water in Guangzhou.


I’m holding off for a couple of days on uploading all the old entries, which are still at www.zeroballet.info/supernaut, due to some weird stuff when I publish a post, which rewrites relative links as absolute. And because absolute links on the old blog is the reason for the delay in the first place, I don’t want to replicate ‘worst-practice’ lack-of-standards all over again.

I’m also moving everything to XHTML1.1 standards. I don’t think I have the energy to rewrite 700 entries of malformed HTML, but I will redo all of December’s posts when I get to them, and update my templates to make it a bit easier to post if the format. Anyway, enough of that, back to the regular slandering of nations and individuals.

-edit- 27 December

I’ve begun to re-upload my old entries, and am currently on May of 2004, and averaging 50 entries a day. The slowness is because being slightly prone to bouts of obsessive perfectionism, I’ve been editing the crap out of every entry. Initially, I was just changing the file paths to the images. Then, in a fit of annoyance at the crappiness of my coding methodology, I made a template of an average entry and rewrote it until it was XHML1.1 valid. Now I’m going through each entry and cleaning the code. So, I’m adding Keywords/Technorati tags to each entry, correctly formatting all the HTML (especially ditching deprecated code), making sure all the site links work, and then validating the whole thing. It was as painful and slow as it sounds, but once I worked out a process, it’s pretty fast now.

In some ways, I really wish I’d done a backup from Movable Type, instead of just relying on Ecto, even though I could just reformat an exported .plist file of all my entries to fit Movable Type’s format, which would be a couple of hours work. But there’s something in me which look at manky HTML and just feels nauseous. It could be I just need a good screw though, and China Mieville has been distracting me alot lately…

So, at the moment I’ve almost finished the first two of twenty-one months of entries, and all the images are uploaded. I’ll keep updating my progress here, and some time in January will have a new site design… so I guess that will make this supernaut3.0, or something. The old version with all the archives is still at www.zeroballet.info/supernaut.

-edit- 01 January

All the entries up till the end of October, 2004 are now up. I’ve also redesigned the handheld/mobile css so hopefully it will look alot better now on those screens than it was until now.

-edit- 31 January

I’m up to February, 2005, with the addition of everything from last year in the hell category. I’ve been very busy with the performance of hell the last couple of weeks so editing and uploading entries has been low priority. I’ll resume the upload bonanza later this week.

-edit- 20 March

So I’m fairly lazy, no? After messing about for ages and not really bothering, I’ve now uploaded to the end of June, 2005. which means about five months to go…

-edit- 25 March

With Guangzhou weather keeping me inside, I’ve uploaded to the end of August, and the remainder of December, 2005. That leaves three months minus the hell entries in November to go, about 100 more…

-edit- 25 June

Half a year later, and 676 entries have been recoded to XHTML1.1 (minus a few errors I’ll check some time) and all transferred over to here. Finished. If I ever have to do this again, I’ll stop blogging.

chinese mediaculture

One of the works at the 第二届广州三年展 2nd Guangzhou Triennial, the Beijing Boom Tower, has come back to me in unusual ways. Dynamic City Foundation, who were responsible the tower are publishing a book next year on Chinese Urbanisation. Having a healthy appetite for new media stuff, they also have a Wiki, Chinese Mediaculture.

Nowhere has this new middle landscape become more clear than in the new media culture that has arisen in China over the last few years. Weblogs, bulletinboards, peer-to-peer distribution and chatrooms have made the sharp division between public and private lives problematic. While most of these new media are used for mere entertainment, on the internet Chinese citizens do employ a number of tactics to find or distribute information outside the official media system. More than once collective outrage in this middle sphere –somewhere between private conversation and the official media –has had political consequences. Conversations on bulletin boards and weblogs have spilled over to the official media and forced the state to investigate cases of corruption and even hushed up murder. Is this the beginning of a true civil society in China, emerging from these new middle grounds?

—Chinese Mediaculture

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I’m a little slow, and the complexities of the internet sometimes confuse me, like if you spin round and round and round really fast … then try to walk. So, I’ll let Martijn explain:

just a small addition: the wiki is not part of the dynamic city, but part of a research-project I am doing in collaboration with V2 www.v2.nl , an institute
for media art and media culture based in the Netherlands, it’s really sort of
an informal research tool we are using to prepare our debate, which by the way
will be broadcasted in cyberspace, I will keep you updated on this!

—Martijn de Waal

categories and stuff

I’ve changed some of the names of the categories to make them a little more representative of what gets assigned to them, as often they weren’t really a good fit, and I don’t want to make a new category for every second post. I assign multiple categories to every post anyway to make something of a collective mess of the idea of a category, and additionally am a slut for Keywords, which I’ve linked to Technorati.

So, books has become words, to cover anything that has words in it, magazines, fiction, non-fiction, e-books, blogs, and generally all things texty.

Film has become video, to deal with the fact I don’t often see bits of celluloid spinning by at 25 frames a second, but do see lots of moving pixels. It’s pretty much a linguistic change.

What was net-art, a repository initially for browser-based interactive art, installation network-driven art, and so on is now internet. This is probably the least accurate fit, but I don’t want to have two separate categories for internet stuff and net-art stuff.

Also, I’ll be changing the category which is currently extermination into one where all my art stuff goes. I’m just trying to come up with a name…

dongxi wants stuff

I got an email a couple of days ago from the editors of the about to be published dongxi magazine. They have a blog too, and their business model sounds like the one Vice Magazine used: “we came to China to start dongxi. We just couldn’t compete back home”.

New Magazine Seeks Submissions

dongxi needs submissions, which must be sent by e-mail to dxzine@gmail.com. Our first issue is due to come out around November 23, and roughly every month after that.

dongxi pays 50 RMB per poem, photograph and piece of artwork (ideally multiple contributions from each author/artist), and 200-500 RMB per short story.

As for subscribing, it’s very easy. E-mail us a postal address (and preferably a submission) and all future issues will be sent upon publication. If at any time you are not completely satisfied with dongxi, you may cancel your subscription by e-mail at anytime.

Waiting for your works,

dongxi magazine

— dongxi magazine