Laura Kalauz + Martin Schick – Title

Possibly the most problematic of all the performances I’ve seen so far in Tanztage, Laura Kalauz’s and Martin Schick’s Title succeeds for being clever then trips over its own feet. A performance also that can go on and on and doesn’t really need to ever finish. Possibly why when ‘END’ was written on the butcher’s paper whiteboard they kept going for quite a while.

I mainly wanted to see Title because they mentioned dear Ludwig in their programme notes, and having been suffering (and occasionally laughing) through On Certainty (Über Gewissheit) was curious to see what might become of him. After all, in Australia Wittgen-who?! is the common depth of philosophy, whereas here, “Wovon man nicht sprechen kann, darüber muss man schweigen.” is a bumper sticker. Not that most people bother with much between that and “Die Welt ist alles, was der Fall ist.”. Between the two though, there isn’t much left to say anyway.

Innerhalb dieser Recherche und Performance betrachten wir Missverständnisse als Ausganglage für eine “unvernünftige” aber “mögliche” Kommunication. … Dem Ausgangpunkt unserer Arbeit liegt folgendes Zitat von Ludwig Wittgenstein zugrunde: “Die Grenzen meiner Sprache bedeuten die Grenzen meiner Welt”.

They arrive on a motorised bicycle, bringing two foldout chairs, with a pattern of large concentric orange and brown circles printed on the fabric. A foldout table, the aforementioned whiteboard easel, and much (small) impedimenta. The board faces away from the audience, though they sit behind, so facing us. She has a dark grey t-shirt saying “.jpeg” in gold. He wears a white t-shirt with (I think) Ian Brown. I am reminded of course, of Wittgenstein in Derek Jarmen’s film giving lectures at Cambridge, he draws a dog on the blackboard in chalk, writes, ‘a dog’ with an arrow pointing towards it, and says, ‘A dog… cannot lie…”.

Martin writes on the board, makes some small, improvised, not too competent dances. Laura does the same, different though. He again, this time coming down to the audience, then she, and turns the board around. “Nothing. Anything. Something. Something Else.” written and crossed out. She says, “Something beautiful…”. He: “Yes”. She: Something new…”. He: “Something to eat.” Not very philosophical. She slaps him. Can he be certain of his pain?

They run around the room. Tap dance, stop, find themselves in arabesques holding hands. After a time they stop. So what’s that about, she asks. They talk about what they have done, about dancing together. They stop. A new sheet of paper. He draws a cloud, two clouds. A third. She draws thought bubbles from one to another. A cloud thinking a cloud. A thought thinking a thought. An empty thought thinking an empty thought. They tell jokes.

Perhaps this is a lecture and I am at university. I was thinking about the question of is this dance, maybe what the woman asked to Hermann and Jana, “Why do you refuse to dance?”, and perhaps in the context of this piece it is a boring question. They don’t dance. mmm… perhaps. Well, they dance around and occasionally he displays some slightly too extended lines or suspensions of weight, disrupting the decidedly undancerly aesthetic of the piece, out of place enough to be intentional even, and they tap dance rather well. But asking for it to be dance in the way say, one can say with certainty, “that is dance”, is like asking a dog to be a pineapple.

Am I learning anything, then? I learn a new joke: “Man loses a hand. Goes to a second hand shop.” (She throws away some objects, a pingpong paddle, from the table.) “A German eats an Oyster.” He bangs on the table, “Aufmachen!!!”, throws the table away. That’s the end of that line of philosophical enquiry.

They talk at the audience in repetitive cycles until an outbreak of fidgeting, talking, unruly classroom behaviour erupts. I think perhaps that is the point. An overture begins. They dance around the stage until it is cut abruptly. They sit in chairs on opposite sides.

It is clever enough to make me attentive, yet also it it makes me angry. Howard Barker, in an interview I read perhaps about the time I saw Wittgenstein, said:

If they think safely, what is the virtue of them? Do you want to pay £10 to be told what you already knew? That is theft. do you want to agree all the time? That is flattery and the audience is always flattered, which is why it has become sleek.

An honoured audience will quarrel with what it’s seen, it will go home in a state of anger, not because it disapproves, but because it was taken where it was reluctant to go. Thus morality is created in art, by exposure to pain and illegitimate thought.

I would like to say it is because of the latter that I was annoyed, but rather it was there was not enough of this. Yes, it was intelligent and thoughtful, but it also fits neatly within what a particular representation of dance is currently dwelling over. In this, there is no Missverständnis, that the tropes of conceptual performance are not met with the same rigorous analysis as the concept. It is not so different from watching Jérôme Bel pull off t-shirts with slogans on them, but ten years later.

They talk in inane aphorisms at each other, every possible one with ‘silence’ in it, like the shirts, one after another, yes, of course Wittgenstein arrives and departs. Martin does also. Leaving Laura alone sitting in the chair. She pulls off her shirt. There is an identical one underneath. She falls off her chair. very… slowly…

‘END’

Once they have rolled all the way upstage, they pause to discuss how it is going. They ask what sound a dog makes in Germany, in Argentina, cow, a cock, a cock in Switzerland, in France, in China (喔喔喔!). They begin removing everything in the space, writing what what there on the floor with white markers, ‘chair’ ‘cigarette pack’, “it’s the same as in…” they say, with a different incomparable example, and agreeing. Funny that “It’s the same as in PNG where they have four sexes” got a laugh even though “It’s the same as in Switzerland where Nazi people can put money in banks” didn’t. The audience might be also considered then, as part of the performance.

Still thinking about Jana’s HAUS, I decide in some regards they are quite similar. What I would have liked then in Title was to see the same intensity of detail that befits Ludwig’s Tractatus. Maybe I am being a pretentious snob. I felt this also in Suites with Rosalind Goldberg, that to deal with such music in such an offhand and casual way is not a question of being disrespectful, but one of laziness. Or perhaps misunderstanding. It is as if everyone was reading Lacan through Žižek’s Everything You Always Wanted to Know About Lacan… But Were Afraid to Ask Hitchcock and only looked at the pictures.

Which all sounds rather negative, and perhaps the preceding night and day of staring at code left me a little dazed. Title is rather good, funny, clever, worth seeing with a philosopher while slightly drunk.

von zürich hbf nach freiburg im breisgau

The train stopped in Basel. For quite some time. Moved several meters, stopped again. Moved a little less, stopped. A long time. An announcement that we are delayed. Move again some meters… yes… oh… no… disappointment. One hour later I am free of Switzerland.

Sumi says, “I know you”, fixing me with a terrifying stare (she is not). Eventually we work out she saw Mercy 45 in Zürich three years ago, and was in St Gallen Stadtstheter with Cornelia and Debbie. Tomas is here also, a musician, Daniel and his perhaps boyfriend (a discussion on nomenclature is required), and Clint, who finds me at the train station whimpering, “This is a Small Town, isn’t it?”, and… Paea!!! Not seen since November last year.

I am here for some days, instead of the original longer stay in Zürich and then visiting them all in Luzerne. So I go back to Berlin at the end of the week. And…

Daniel is in the shower with a beer when I arrive. Two suitcases now, one full of books and hiking boots and other stuff I don’t use often. I get quite damp hugging him. The apartment is beautiful, large, a vast balcony, Annaplatz outside, with a plain church bearing a loud and clangy bell, each time it peals I think, oh they didn’t make that very well, did they? Despite my aversion to church-y things, when all the bells in Zürich went swinging, the harmonics they generated were quite sublime, a vibrating, interweaving series of notes far more than the single pitch struck by the clapper, building until the whole city reverberated.

Here the bell goes claaaanggg… and fades out in a mediocre blur, a cast-iron pot dropped on the kitchen floor.

We are told off for having fun before 10pm in the platz. I wonder if the geriatrics have washing machine rosters also? Later he looms out of the window, a sepulchral father pushing aside the curtain, the streetlight making it a Hammer House of Horror moment.

Freiburg is rather nice.

This week is grant writing and other excitement, and… I’m not sure how much blogging will ensue.

von wien westbahnhof nach zürich hbf

Some books I read small pieces of in my room in Vienna. Susan Sontag’s Regarding the Pain of Others, a couple of books on Central Asia, several Dykes to Watch Out For comics, one Small Favours(?) comic, German lesbian sex-porn… and the first three or so chapters of Stone Butch Blues. Each time I have read some of this, (and would dearly love to own it) I can never get through the first chapter, her unsent letter without crying. As for the subsequent chapters, oh this book is harrowing for me, knowing somehow those who populate the pages, finding myself in some of them, seeing who I desire in others…

I’ve had some post-show blues, though met with equal amounts of excitement at my impending return to Zürich. I write this on the train, we are just leaving Linz HBF. I miss the rhythm of being with a group, each day the rehearsals and the familiarity of it all. I’m first greeted by much tiredness and oh, like something departing from me. And this is all mental and emotional though. What I think is most difficult is feeling the performance and weeks leave my body. Or rather, it is not so passive. My body covers up these weeks, most obviously healing torn skin and bruises, less visible but no less real is the diminishment of how the inside feels from these weeks. My ankles no longer so fragile, shoulders, back, all this gradually dissipating. This is the hardest thing, to feel all this depart.

Zürich… later this week Freiburg to see my beautiful Daniel and Paea. I feel a impelling need to get back to Berlin and commence.

vienna…

I’m going to Vienna.

eeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

I got an email this afternoon saying I’ve been accepted for the Choreographers’ Venture with Hans van den Broeck. He was a quite memorable influence on me last time I was at DanceWEB, oh years ago now… and I didn’t even do his workshop. I should have. I just got rather drunk in a park with him and a score of others who were doing things with him and thinking, “Crap, I should be doing this…” Now I will be.

I suppose now is also a good time to make the announcement that many of you know already, I’m flying to Germany on July 3rd, first to Berlin, where I have hopes of dance and dark cabarets filled with demimondes and bois, then to Vienna, and afterwards a return briefly to Zürich.

And then to see this delightful pirate whom I miss very much.

they are not my dreams

After coughing myself into sleep deprivation over the previous couple of weeks, it was a blessing when dreams returned last week. My dreams tend towards the strange, bizarre, grotesque, occasionally nightmarish and often more peculiarly real and meticulously detailed than my waking world. Besides the singularly terrifying or lucid dreams that I remember with no external help until senility will steal my memories, I make no record of them.

Suzanne G. variously known as wurzeltod, Thee Temple ov Psychick Blah, is one of my favourite though not frequently updated blogs, who accompanied by the most sublime photography of Gregory Crewdson (which is really what this post is about) said, last night, I dreamt about being kidnapped by the guerilla troops of London’s underground system.

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hiding under the bed…

In an uncanny, though not unanticipated recurrence, I am slightly lost in a post-performance limbo that bears many similarities with how I felt last year after finishing bitches. Since Monday night, after I returned from dinner with everyone, I’ve left the apartment infrequently, and only for short periods. As much as I love the insane socialising that is part of making dance, I also adore not seeing anyone for days, not talking to anyone, having my own isolation. It’s also been time for putting together the DVD of 岭南启示录 Apocalypse PRD, the video-encoding of which is literally a week-long process on my old PowerBook.

In a complete change of focus then, leaving Guangzhou altogether, my darling Cornelia, with whom most of last year in Zürich was spent dancing, drinking, eating cheese and watching The Mighty Boosh is currently dancing at Tanzhaus Wasserwerk in Fumi Matsuda’s ich wanderte und wandre noch.

ich wanderte und wandre noch ich wanderte und wandre noch

siwic 2006

If you’ve been reading this blog for more than six months, you’ll know in June last year I did the slightly lunatic thing of jumping on a plane to Europe with the last of my money, money intended for a ticket from Hong Kong to Melbourne, and arrived in a city famed for its incomprehension of not being rich, all so I could spend three weeks in a workshop called SiWiC – Swiss International Coaching Project for Choregraphers. My daily excesses and slaying of dancers, and nightly promenades along the Limmat in my new-found home, all lovingly documented here were also the moment when my blogging became public knowledge by the people around me, and the subject of endless self-referential conversational loops.

So, of course I would do it all again. Except I can’t, because other choreographers deserve the chance I got, and the time is now for that. SiWiC 2006 is directed by Ginette Lauren of Montreal’s O Vertigo, and applications are open now. I’m as envious as all fuck.

SiWiC 2006 SiWiC 2006

z-town to g-town

The flight wasn’t as bad as I’d thought it would be, though getting screwed at Hong Kong airport for a $HK900 visa to China while I was hallucinating from sleep deprivation didn’t really enamour me to the idea of intercontinental jet travel. There was also a measurable level of culture-shock on the train to Guangzhou, going through the sweatshop hub of the world in Dongguan and the string of menacing dirt-grey concrete factories. I had to remind myself that it’s ok; China is a third world country.

So departing and arriving. Even the flight out of Zürich was in question as a blizzard rioted across western Europe delaying flights, and at 5am the city was white under a soft carpet of fresh snow. Guangzhou some thirty hours later was dark and cool, a slight tang of humidity and the distinct scent of China, of the city, indefinable and unique; the smell a city gets when it doesn’t care enough to not bathe in its own smell.

Arrivals. Michael returned from America within hours of my passing out in a jet-lagged heap, and for the next ten days I’ll be across the hall from him in Izumi’s Overseas Chinese Village apartment. What was once the part of town the wealthy Chinese expatriates lived in is now home to many of the city’s foreigners, and looking out from the balcony, through the trees across the park, it’s possible to pretend we’re not in China here.

Despite my temporary return to being a new work here, I have some large ambivalent feelings towards Guangzhou and China in general. Partly from half a year in the sophisticated and mature world of Zürich, were people take art seriously, partly from a change in me, which makes me wonder about the worth of trying to make art here. But of course I’m still stoned from the flight, the life in my body stretched thinly out across Central Asia, slowly reeling back into my cells.

Tom celebrated my last ballet class in Zürich by putting on a fine display of tiger stripes and a red bandana, while Erick and Anna flashed their tits at me, a photo very much not going to make it up here. Later that day after champagne at El Locale with Anna and Cornelia, we passed through Bellevue for the last time this year, the snow just beginning to shroud the town.

tom putting on a show for me tom putting on a show for me

bellevue as the snow began bellevue as the snow began

tao jin lu in guangzhou tao jin lu in guangzhou

life

It’s been five months, an unexpected length of time for me to be in one place, almost long enough to say I live here, though that is just something I pretend. It’s sometimes confusing to remember where I’ve been in the last fourteen months, and when. The uncertainty of where I will be in a year is almost the same as the elusiveness of where I’ve been in the past. Zürich though has become something I was looking for; almost a home.

There are some amazing people in this town who have made my time here one of the most memorable of my life, and given me killer abs from five months solid of laughing my ass off. Emile and I spent quite a few evenings together doing the compare Australia and Suisse, and Melbourne and Zürich, and art there and art here, and besides Melbourne having one of the best live music scenes in the world, there is something going on here that is missing there. Or maybe it’s the cheese, chocolate, brot, and coffee.

Anyway at the end of a wild and unplanned time here, in a city and country I never imagined I’d visit let alone live in for a while, there’s always been that feeling of amazement, from hanging out in Vevey at the Chateau by the lake in summer or in Zürich at the Dachstock after rehearsals in winter. Which is why I’m quite sad to leave. That feeling, and the art I make when I’m somewhere that affects me like that is why I’d be really happy to spend a few years around here making bad art and hanging out every night.

So thank you to everyone who made Z-town such a rocking time, and yes, I will be back for more of the same.

As for the photo, which is from the genius of Cornelia, somehow it captures so much of Zürich for me … late nights after rehearsal, drinking beer and wine, eating cheese, bread, chocolate, watching The Mighty Boosh on a laptop hooked up to the Dachstock sound system, and laughing our guts out.

frances, cornelia and emile rocking the dachstock in z-town

hell – video corruption

I’ve fallen out of the mood to blog at the moment. It coincided with finishing hell, and so finishing my five months in Zürich. I’m flying to Hong Kong on Friday to start the new piece in Guangzhou, before heading to Melbourne to make hell there, more dancers, same old shit. In the meantime, Cornelia came around for dinner last night, and we started getting plastered on red wine. Then the wine ran out. So, we watched (and took photos off the screen and the screens of each other’s cameras – hell goes recursive) the Emile inside-version of hell, positively gynaecological. More snow today, so I bought Tony Ballantyne’s Capacity.

red light camera meter strangling red light camera meter strangling

death metal diffraction patterns death metal diffraction patterns

cornelia's bum cornelia’s bum

botticelli arm wierdness botticelli arm wierdness

cornelia's bum again cornelia’s bum again